What Inspired Me To Blog

What-Made-Me-Blog_001Today — 10th of June — is Ballpoint Pen Day!

I love pens, particularly my old trusty ballpoints. Pens are right up there on my list of All The Things I Must Own Lots Of with some of the other things being watches, makeup, bags, all the geek things and shoes.
I love ballpoint pens simply because I still hand write the majority of my blogs — and shopping lists, to-do lists and random thoughts — before I type them out. Yes, that may sound silly and essentially be a lot more work — you’re right, it is — but I have always loved physically writing something. My thoughts flow better through ink than type face.

What is Ballpoint Pen Day I hear you asking? Well I found the following explanation from the guys over at Weird Holiday:

Ballpoint Pen Day is celebrated on June 10th in honor of the Bíró brothers, László and György, who are credited with the invention of the ballpoint pen. On this day, in 1943, the Bíró brothers filed an application for the patent of the ballpoint pen with the European Patent Office. These early pens became the first commercial models of the ballpoint pen.

In honour of Ballpoint Pen Day I thought I’d answer the question “what inspired me to blog?”
Granted it’s a little stretch from talking about writing or listing my favourite pens for you, which I was very tempted to do. Since we now know that I handwrite my blogs prior to typing them I’m using that as my tenuous link to Ballpoint Pen Day!
Indeed, that link is so minimal we’d need an large hadron collider (LHC) to see it. And even then I suspect it would be as difficult to find as the Higgs Boson particle.
So let’s get on with it!

It’s a simple enough question on the surface: what inspired me to blog?

The answer is not really as simple because a lot of things have  happened that led to the final decision of “I want to write, a lot. I want to write often. I want my own Second Life® blog.”

I started blogging a long time ago. Over the years I’ve had numerous blogs outside of Second Life®, each one representing a different aspect of me at different times in my life.
I created a community for people with a particular mental illness.
I have delved into real life fashion blogging.
I’ve also posted my creative writing on old blogs and attempted writing fanfic, which was not my best hour!
My ongoing achievement, and one of my hardest, has been working with the Eidann on our podcast and the blog associated with it.

Recently I’ve started writing for a real life company with an HQ in Second Life®, which for someone like me, is beyond amazing. Yes, I know I’ve mentioned it a lot lately, it’s kind of a big deal for me. I’ll try to reign it in.

Then there’s RaznayDecosta.com. It has filled a hole I didn’t realise I had. It has shown me that I can be, and do, everything that I have always felt was unattainable. I can write in my voice without fear of rejection or negative rhetoric about my person. It is acceptable, here, for me to write honestly and authentically without fear of pissing someone off because I didn’t agree with their point of view or, simply, because I wrote honestly.

My blog also provides me anonymity. And while some see anonymity as hiding, I see it as a chance to spread my wings and jump off the highest branch. I’ll either learn to fly or I won’t.
The choice is entirely mine.

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So… The reason I started blogging here is complicated. In part, I reopened Second Life® because I needed to escape the overwhelmingly crushing grief that threatened to consume me.
I needed a virtual world full of people who have no idea what my real flesh was — okay, is — going through. I still need that, but the separation between the real and virtual worlds isn’t as neat and clearly defined as I’d like. While I’ve always known they can’t be separated — because no matter how hard I try I am the same person whether I am flesh or pixels — the absolute realisation came recently.

When I decided to open the Second Life® viewer Firestorm I gave myself one rule: I would not talk about the events that led me back to SL.
As I’m not ready to entirely break the solitary rule I set I’ll leave the reason I started blogging as is.

I didn’t know I was going to blog when I first came back. I assumed I’d just visit random places, obsessively shop and then get bored again and leave. No one would have been any the wiser and I would have taken what I needed — a break from reality — and would be back to “normal”, or as close to that unachievable label as possible.

Then I stumbled upon Strawberry Singh’s blog. That was the moment, the miraculous moment, everything changed, forever.

Initially I was searching for information on appliers because they were completely new to me and I just didn’t understand how they, or a mesh body, worked. As I read nearly a years worth of Strawberry’s posts I realised that this was exactly the way I could delve into everything I’ve always wanted to but was either too sick, too tired or just not motivated enough to do in the flesh (the latter referring to fashion blogging).

I also realised blogging would be a fantastic way to keep the grey matter — my brain — active and to really push me to not only find my voice, but to practice using it so I can work towards writing copy. Or writing in general because words are my thing; that one thing I am really good at.

So this is the part where I’d like to take a moment to thank Strawberry Singh for being that last beautiful piece of a puzzle I’ve been working on — unknowingly — for years! Thank you for being the inspiration I needed to do what I do best; write.

If you’re a writer of blogs or words on paper, and even if you’re not, I would love to know what your inspiration was — or would be — to start writing. Let me know in the comments!

.::Credits::.

Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara v3.3 — by Onyx LeShelle
Head: LeLutka Mesh Head – STELLA — Thora Charron
Skin: Glam Affair (Lelutka Heads) Avril Applier – Jamaica FR — by Aida Ewing
Hair: Maitreya Saar – Almond — by Onyx LeShelle
Eyes: IKON Charm Eyes – Evening — by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: *MC* “Falsies” Mesh Alpha Lashes — by Freya Olivieri
Ears: [MANDALA] UNISEX STEKING_EARS_Season 5 — by Kikunosuke Eel

.::Outfit::.
Top: tres blah – Cropped Sweatshirt – Sea — by Julliette Westerburg
Jeans: Maitreya Zipper-Skinny Jeans #4 — by Onyx LeShelle

.::Furniture::.
Desk Furniture and rug is a mix of {what next} Blogger’s Office Accessories, {what next} Isabelle Tulips and {what next} Novelle Study Set by Winter Thorn
Laptop: KoreTech MyBook Pro by kewlmonke Zepp
Couch and trunk: N4RS Bombay Sofa – PG Set — by alecat Breda
Ottoman and Carpet: :CP: Lotus Spa Tent Set (PG) — by Isla Gealach
Candles: Sway’s [Sadaf] Bench & Tray — by Sway Dench
Coffee table and flowers: {what next} Charlotte Living Room – Set A — by Winter Thorn
Whitewashed screen: {theosophy} Wall Panel (Whitewash) — by Trace (trace.osterham)

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4 thoughts on “What Inspired Me To Blog

  1. I’m in love with the fact that you write out your blogs before you type them. OMG, marry me! And then teach me how to write again, cos I do it so rarely that my handwriting looks like a 7 year old who’s trying super hard to channel fancy penmanship for someone’s birthday card. So not cute! 🙂

    Your photos are super gorgeous! And I’m so happy to you *did* come back, because y’know, YOU and stuff. I’m so glad you’re continuing to write as well; always the best day ever when there’s a new Razzy post to read! ❤

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    • If only wordpress let me use my Wacom tablet to handwrite my blog posts… Ahh, the dreams I will have about that one now!

      I do!!!

      The only reason I started handwriting again was because of this blog! It took me a few weeks (literally weeks, not even using hyperbole there either) to remember how to write again and then, once my brain caught on it was like “OMG you may now have all of the ideas and you must use them NOW!” I’m relatively sure your handwriting would be beautiful, just like you (too cheesy?)

      WOOHOO!!! I’m glad you’re glad that I didn’t leave. The crisis, I think, was more about feeling overwhelmed with the real life things. All my loves are belong to you!

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  2. I love ball point pens too! I looove the gel ink ones – I get the big package with all the pretty colors. 🙂 Currently I’m writing with the purple. 😛 I keep lists everywhere – I carry a notepad with me so I can jot down blog topic ideas when they strike. I’ve tried using the notepad in my phone, but I just can’t. I love watching my ideas flow out of my brain through the pen and onto paper. Is that weird? o.O
    I started blogging because I love to write. It’s one of the things I know I do well, and I hope one day to get paid for doing it. I’ve had RL blogs, but I’ve learned a lot through my SL blog. I love SL because it lets me experiment and do/be things I just couldn’t in RL, for a myriad of reasons. And it is hard to keep the two separate – my RL interest in photography, for instance, has spilled over into interest in photography in SL. Whatever brought you here – thanks for brightening my little corner of SL! I’m having a ton of fun reading your blog. 😀

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    • I haven’t really been able to get into the coloured gel inks. For some reason they seize up when I use them and the ink doesn’t flow nicely. I’m not sure if it’s some kind of universal “Raznay shall not use these pens” thing or if I just have some kind of electromagnetic field that harms gel ink pens and tech >.<
      But I LOVE that your notes are all pretty colours! That makes me smile like you wouldn't believe!

      As for it being weird to prefer handwriting rather than typing; HELL NO! I prefer it too and is one of the reasons it takes me so damn long to sit down and type responses! I wish I could handwrite them and then they're done and it's all pretty and yeah… Now that is weird!!

      Thank you so much for sharing why you started blogging! Hello fellow lover of writing and being good at it. I will keep everything crossed that you will get paid for your words and when you do I would dearly love a detailed account of how awesome it is up there on that prestigious pinnacle.. Please?!

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