10 Things

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While my blog is still in its infancy I thought I would take the time right at the outset to write some posts to help you get to know me a little better.
I think it’s important to get to know the person behind the blog, or in this case the pixels, as it helps to understand them and their quirks. For instance, my humour is often misunderstood and because of this I have found myself being extra careful of what I say and how I say it.
As you can imagine this makes writing quite difficult, at best. At worst it’s actually stopped me from writing because the “best bits” end up being so heavily edited they’re no longer good.
Eventually I have realised that if you get to know me and some of my quirks then my writing won’t be so, well, stunted and choppy. Instead, it can flow like a beautiful river on her way to the sea.

Yeah, I agree there shall be no more rambling, or attempts at anything resembling poetry, let’s jump right into:

10 things I wish people knew about me

  1. I’m shy — in fact I am almost painfully shy, even in Second Life. I hide behind cuteness, geekiness and some false bravado, but underneath it all I am a shy little kitten scared of her own shadow. This also happens to make me incredibly awkward.
  2. I spent time, in my early days, as a dancer — basically I know how to emote quite well. I choose to keep my emotes PG because I’m not interested in pixel sex.
  3. I’m sensitive — this isn’t such a stretch given I’ve done a pretty poor job of hiding it. I don’t subscribe to the “it’s weak” view of wearing your heart on your sleeve, instead I view it as one of my greatest strengths; it makes me empathic, caring and loyal.
  4. Solitude, I crave it — while I enjoy spending time with people and relish their happy vibes and excitement, I crave time with my own thoughts.
  5. Sarcasm is my BFF — I use sarcasm a lot. We understand each other. We’re basically inseparable. Don’t worry, I’ll always let you know when I am being sarcastic as I realise what sounds sarcastic to me doesn’t always translate in the written word.
  6. I notice more than people realise — I’m forever being asked “who told you that?” when I point out something I’ve noticed. I can see, I can read and I am really good at learning people’s inflections in their typing.
  7. I’m easily distracted — pretty shiny things *runs off*
  8. I have a lot of pet peeves — most of them I’m not very good at keeping to myself. If you’d like to witness me vent about my pet peeves feel free to follow me on Plurk.
  9. Romantic comedies make me sad — I’m not actually sure why but they are really depressing and just end up making me cry, a lot.
  10. I write most of my posts in Evernote while lying in bed, just before I’m about to fall asleep — because that’s when my brain is the most active when it comes to posts and what to write, so I write — okay type — until I fall asleep with my phone in my hand.

If you feel like answering your own 10 things you wish people knew about you, you can write your own post — don’t forget to link it in the comments — or list them in the comments.

Credits

Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara v3.3 — by Onyx LeShelle
Skin: Glam Affair – Katra Skin [ Jamaica ] 2 — by Aida Ewing
Hair:  Analog Dog – Lua – brunette — by Queue Marlowe
Eyes: IKON Sovereign Mesh Eyes – Field — by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: *MC* “Falsies” Mesh Alpha Lashes — by Freya Olivieri
Ears: [MANDALA]Steking EARS(unisex) — by Kikunosuke Eel

Lingerie: Zaara – Chanchal Lingerie – onyx – Maitreya appliers — by Zaara Kohime (comes with the Maitreya Body)

Pose: terra design – Pose Fair 2015 Gift — by Cutebaby Melody

Location: Quiet

Razzy Takes on the Double Threat Meme

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When I decided to complete this Berry Meme I thought it would be fun to answer some questions so you’d get to know a little bit more about me. It was a lot of fun, but it also highlighted something I have been feeling recently that I couldn’t quite put my finger on.

Loneliness.

It’s not for a lack of making friends or meeting some incredibly wonderful people, because I have done both in the few weeks since I re-entered Second Life. I think it’s more the fact that the people I used to spend a lot of time with have all moved on, and I miss them. Those people that I was closest to are friends in real life, so they are still part of my life. It’s just… well… It’s not the same as being in Second Life and exploring, talking and laughing together.

With that in mind, I do apologise for the sad tone in some of my responses. I have tried many times to edit this to be less maudlin, but it just kept getting worse. So this is as good as it gets.

If you are so inclined to participate in this Meme here are the instructions:

Share your answers to the following questions. 

Two online screen names you’ve had: I’m a bit of a weirdo and have used Raznay exclusively for 10+ years. I do have another screen name that I use for RL purposes, but I’d like to keep that private; at least for now.

Two video games you’ve played: DC Universe Online and World of Warcraft. I am a gamer in real life so it was hard to pick only two.

Two things you love about Second Life: I love meeting so many wonderful people as I flit around, especially lately while I’ve been participating in the Wayward Hunt. The other thing I love about Second Life is that it gives me the opportunity to do all the things I am not necessarily able to do in real life.

Two things you’ve done in Second Life: I have designed and created clothes and I have been a successful DJ.

Two things you still want to do in Second Life: I would like to learn how to craft mesh items and I would like to start making my own poses so I can create the images I picture when I write my posts.

Two things you like about your Second Life avatar: I love Razzy’s height and her shape, particularly her face.

Two of your Second Life Pet Peeves: People who don’t read profiles before contacting me and people being unnecessarily rude.

Two things you did as a newb that you’re embarrassed of: Buying Xcite body parts as a joke, because spending that much money for a joke is just totally hilarious
I’m also highly embarrassed — and ashamed — of trusting people who didn’t deserve my trust.

Two of your closest friends in Second Life: At this point in time I really only have one close friend. After a three year absence not a lot of people keep you on their friends list and even less are still around.

Two of the most beloved things in your inventory: Definitely my Maitreya Mesh Body and photo’s of friends that have long since moved on.

Credits

Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara — by Onyx LeShelle
Skin: Glam Affair – Katra Skin [ Jamaica ] 01 — by Aida Ewing
Hair: TRUTH HAIR Harmony [Bun] – variety — by Truth Hawks
Eyes: IKON Sovereign Mesh Eyes – Ice — by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: MC “Falsies” Mesh Alpha Lashes — by Freya Olivieri
Ears: [MANDALA]Steking EARS(unisex) — by Kikunosuke Eel

Top: DRIFT Morning Tank [MESH] 15 Color HUD — by Kallisto Destiny
Jeans: Maitreya Zipper Skinny  Jeans – #1 — by Onyx LeShelle
Shoes: Ingenue :: Cecily Flats :: Bloom — by Betty Doyle

Necklace: [MANDALA] ONLIEST (unisex) Necklace set – all colours — by Kikunosuke Eel
Watch: [MANDALA] BILLIONAIRE SMEXY (Black) – Unisex — by Kikunosuke Eel
Ring: MG – Rings – Black Sun – SILVER — by Maxi Gossamer

Pose: Exposeur Girl At The Window [Wayward Hunt Gift] — by RubyStarlight Writer

A Special Kind of Meme

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I’ll admit that I don’t read a lot of blogs. It’s not that I don’t want to read them, I actually have them all queued up in my viewer, it’s just that when I sit down at my desk I immediately get to work on my next photo or my next post. Having said that, one post I did manage to read during one of those rare “free” moments was this one by Strawberry Singh.

This meme struck a chord with me right away. So many things have been going on, some of them have even been good, that it was nice to stop and just be mindful and in the moment. Not unsurprisingly this helped me to process some things and I actually felt better for it.

I’ve actually been doing this every day, just for me, to see where my headspace is and to address any issues that are there. It’s been incredibly helpful to channel the dreary mindfulness exercises. I’m pretty sure that wasn’t what Berry had in mind when she started this meme, but there you go.

Meme instructions:

Copy and paste the following statements in your post and complete them writing down the first thing that pops into your head. Don’t forget to link your post in the comments.

I am… shy.

I want… love and respect.

I have… coffee.

I wish… for more coffee, and chocolate.

I hate… ignorant people and rude people.

I fear… abandonment.

I search… for self acceptance.

I wonder… if I can do this.

I regret… a lot.

I never… forget and rarely forgive.

I always… land on my feet.

I usually… laugh at my own jokes.

I dance… in my seat.

I sing… as often as possible, when I am alone.

I often… spend too much time in Second Life.

I sometimes… wonder why he loves me.

I need… to buy more coffee.

I cry… often.

I should… take more photo’s.

I love… my wonderful little family.

Credits

Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara — by Onyx LeShelle
Skin: Glam Affair – Katra Skin [ Jamaica ] 06 — by Aida Ewing
Hair: TRUTH Hair – Malibu – variety — by Truth Hawks
Eyes: IKON Sovereign Mesh Eyes – Ice — by Ikon Innovia
Lashes: *MC* “Falsies” Mesh Alpha Lashes — by Freya Olivieri

Dress: Zaara : [Mesh] Ritika Maxi dress *ocean* — by Zaara Kohime
Jewellery: Zaara : [Mesh] Atiriya set *amythest* — by Zaara Kohime

Pose: Exposeur – March 2015 Gift – Singles – 3.15 Gift 4 — by RubyStarlight Writer

Location: Blithe